Somehow music seems to always bring me to a state of bliss and serenity. I am at this point not sure how this could still be, for it seems as though this has been a trend throughout my lifetime. I am aware this is true for many, however I'm still in awe of the person who decided one day to try something new, and wrote the first song. Although I know at first they were based off of chants, however there was definitely music before this, unrecorded in our books. Eh, whatever.
Anyhow, at the moment things are rather interesting. For the first time in a long time, I'm not doing the best in school, which is actually terrible. At the moment I have the first B in French I have had in the past four years, which makes me want to cry. Not to mention a B in history, which I have never received. We'll see how this all works out. I'm hoping to raise my grades in French and History, as well as Chemistry. Chemistry I think I may be able to pull off, as long as I can do better than a B on this test, I should be getting a hundred, which would be awesome.
My life at the moment is pretty good, especially because I was over at my dad's tonight, which was very nice. It was the first time in over a month that I spent at my dad's for dinner. In the past few weeks I haven't seen him at all. So tonight I saw him, and we chatted and sorted out how I would pay for the German classes and then possible trip come April. He told me he would pay for half of the German trip, which is amazing, and I'm unbelievably thankful. I just hope I am able to get the money together in time to purchase a reasonably priced ticket, as well as miss a week of school. We'll see.
Oh, I also hopefully will be getting my license in three weeks time, which would be most amazing.
So now for the part of this entry with more substance.
I sometimes wonder if I'll ever be satisfied. Although I am aware that it is human nature to want more, that is simply the way we are wired, I mean I find it difficult to comprehend that I am here. Still, after almost three months. However, I feel as though thins will never be the same, and I knew that. I knew that going in and I still complain. I also am scared I have feelings for someone whom I shouldn't have feelings for. Although, I have also noticed that I seem to have the worst possible taste in such matters.
I talked briefly with Judith today online, and then she sent me the longest email known to man. I miss her so much. And Tini. And my life.
Where do we go when we don't know where home is?
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