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i could be risking it all...
The mindset of the kids in my class today was "Let us all talk about Alice leaving, and how we do not want her to go" I feel like I have been asked about thirty times today "So freust du dich schon auf zuhaus?" Which is basically "are you happy about going home." And actually, I have no idea. It's a feeling that I couldn't describe, I think, even with the most expansive vocabulary in the world. Egal if it's in English or German. I don't think I could really ever describe how I'm feeling. Although I hope to not be this vague. I'm just very scared of going home, but I also know I cannot stay here. It's a strange feeling, to feel at home and knowing you have to go actually back to your home. It's not working for me.

Otherwise the day was sunny and I don't have any reason to complain, except for the rising prices of tomatoes in Germany! But it was still good. I had Badminton with Katha and Laura, which meant basically no badminton and more talking, playing against Herr Olinsky, as he kept telling us how good we were. He's  a nice guy, but at times just too nice, I'm not interested into the whole Germanpedophilemangymteacher. Ahh well so ist das.

The Americans are visiting my school now, which is pretty exciting. They're all very sweet, and it's fun to hear some English. But somehow, I've forgotten how it really is to talk with them. Although I still talk to Alex, it's not the same, because at this point, we all speak broken English, ya know, English with German sentence structure, etc.

Germany is playing against Turkey on Wednesday in the Europe Cup. Now, may people don't know the animosity between Germany and least, as far as I know. In any case, it's definitely going to be interesting, the game. Although Turkey has played well so far in the tournament, they have really just gotten lucky in the last few moments of the games. However they did lose against Portugal, and we beat Portugal on Thursday, so I'm hoping that Germany will play well. If they play as they did on Thursday, I feel like they will really have a chance.

Anyway, so tomorrow. Meeting with Felix...this should be interesting. I feel as if no one should be allowed to say how much they want  you to come ver, when they are aware that you have certain feelings for them. It as if they are trying to make you go crazy. In this case, it's as if he wants me to want him, without any intention of anything happening. He's so damn eingebildet!!!! And for anyone who speaks hast mich total vertig gemacht, aber ich will trotzdem was von ihm!  Okay so enough of the German and english and the inbetween. Time for bed.

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Four things, in order of increasing length.
1. I have added you.
2. We have the same "current music" in our respective latest posts.
3. I lived close to Dallas, Texas when I was... an exi =p That's what we called it, anyway.
4. I can relate to that feeling to a point. It is as though all of a sudden you have two homes and that's why there is no real homesickness anymore =)
Except that... no offense, but the US = wirklich nix für mich. The year was okay and I guess I wouldn't want to have missed it, but I have no desire whatsoever to go back there. When my time there was ending I was more than ready to go home. Not desperately, and I didn't have problems with the host family or anything, I just knew it wasn't the place I wanted to be.
But, I think it is different for everyone. (Plus, I am somehow proud that you like Germany...weird, with not knowing you at all.)

01. I added you too! :D
02. Well, I mean, Bob Marley, you cannot go wrong...
03. Seriously? My mom is from Dallas.
04. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't think I've ever been this scared before.
And don't worry, I understand about the US. I mean, I love it here too, but I don't think I could live here forever, in fact, I know I couldn't live here forever. But it's so much fun while it lasts.

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